When we lost our first son Isaac, despite a full term and straightforward pregnancy, I felt abandoned, alone and at that moment nothing else mattered. Like Gideon I asked ‘’if the Lord is with us, why has all this happened to us?’’ It seemed no one understood and felt my pain.
As the months went by, I discovered that thousands of women before me have walked that path. As I reflected, numerous scriptures began to dawn on me.
- Psalm 23: 4 (even when I walk through the darkest valley … he is close beside me)
- Isaiah 43: 2 (When I pass through the waters, he is with me; and when I pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over me. When I walk through the fire, I will not be burned; the flames will not set me ablaze
- Heb 13:5 ( he will never leave nor forsake me)
- Psalm 86:7 (I will call to him whenever I’m in trouble/difficulty, and he will answer me).
Isaac went home over five years ago and indeed I can confidently say I know without a shadow of a doubt he loves me, his thoughts towards me are good and surely he has given me the future I hoped for and more.
God understands your pain, he is with you and your end would be full of joy. Let me leave you with this scripture he gave me as I lay on the hospital bed five days after we lost Isaac: do meditate on it till it sinks into your spirit.
So don’t worry, because I am with you. Don’t be afraid, because I am your God. I will make you strong and will help you; I will support you with my right hand that saves you (Isaiah 41:10).
If you need to talk, or just want a listening ear, I am here for you.