A new dawn

I came across these quotes recently  ‘when life gives you limes rearrange the letters until they stay smile’ and when life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.’ Of course, it was not easy for me to smile after trying to conceive month after month with no success nor after conceiving twice and losing both babies when all was deemed fine. But I came to that point shortly after we lost our second child, that although discouraged I refuse to be down and defeated. In my mind I decided not to be a victim but to be a victor despite my present or future state.

It took a lot of effort as both quotes depict (rearrange the letters until… and show life …) but it was a daily and continuous fight both internally and externally to keep smiling. Just having that mindset gave me the courage to face each day expectant that everything would be alright even if I did not achieve my desire of being a biological mum. Of course physically speaking I had many reasons to smile: we were still together, I was still alive, my blood pressure was under control, the assurance that I would see my kids again and finally my purpose in life was worth me hanging on.

I am grateful that I now have two boys that make me smile each day and for the opportunity to walk beside and encourage other women who have been given limes and I pray you would have many reasons to smile soon.

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2 thoughts on “A new dawn

  1. I liked your tag “victor not a victim.”
    I’m going to make that my personal mantra. From this day forward, I will be in charge of my life and not allow my course to be determined by circumstances or by the expectations of other people.

    • Thanks Erin for your comments, totally agree with you that everyone’s journey is different and despite this the great thing about baby loss survivors is the fact that we can still relate with each other and support one another. I really admire your strength and sending you a big hug too.

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